to the chess club and the math club and the rap club that has yet to hold a meeting,
to every pair of lungs that breathe and every pair of hands that shake,
you're not alone. (excuse my cliche)
i see the fragile heart hidden beneath the mesh armor of the jersey you wear
the smothered words trapped behind metal coated teeth
i see the broken smile that not even the brightest shade of drugstore lipstick can conceal
and the pain buried somewhere deep in your binder
i've felt despair in the midst of the battlefield
when the sword just seems too heavy and rust-scented blood threatens sanity
i've been alone in the hallway stampede
each errant elbow and swinging backpack a deathblow,
each giggle shared amongst friends a eulogy
i've had a staring contest with disappointment
and felt the burn
that comes with unfulfilled expectations
you're not alone
i am you
you are me
we're comrades at arms.
and outside of the commons,
beyond the "world class" sign,
away from the teachers and hallways and grading scales and assemblies,
is another battle waiting to be fought.
because they don't write history books about those who let themselves be silenced
and you deserve to be heard.
you deserve to be seen.
you deserve to live.
raise your voice
paint the sky with your dreams
grasp the world in your palms and claim it as your own
because spring's just around the corner
and i can't wait to see what you
what i
what we
will become
you're not alone
so please don't leave me
I'm looking for a crying emoticon
ReplyDeletebecause they don't write history books about those who let themselves be silenced and you deserve to be heard.
ReplyDeleteIncredible Sam. So beautiful.
ReplyDelete"grasp the world in your palms and claim it as your own" At first I read this wrong and I thought it said "and claim your ass as your own" and I was like okay ye-uh gettit sam.
ReplyDeleteOn a serious note, I just really appreciate this because it made me remember a lot of things and remember who I thought I was a year ago and who I actually was a year ago and the things I regret and the things I can't take back and it put things into perspective of things I'm doing now that I might regret later and I don't want there to be anything I wish I could do differently and you seem like you have your shiz together and I admire that and I can't wait to see how else you inspire me.
Wait thank you so much for this comment <3
DeleteRetweet Hannah. Sam this was incredible and real and you're wonderful.
ReplyDeleteYou're an incredible writer.
ReplyDeleteOne day later.
ReplyDeleteStill applies.
More than ever.
I feel like you Sam.
Thank you for sharing. This is really really good.
ReplyDeleteI've been up all night reading through your stuff because you were my favorite writer in the class and when I read this, I was hit with more emotion than I've felt in a really really long time. I miss being in class with you and listening to what you have to say. Keep writing because you are a phenomenal writer and what you put in your blogs has touched my heart when so many other things cease to do so. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteHey Tanner, I was so so happy when I read this comment and I am BEYOND flattered that you enjoyed my writing! I've been feeling down about just about everything lately and this comment lifted me up...it's nice to know that something I wrote meant something to someone. I'm smiling like an idiot right now.
DeleteAlso, I just wanted to tell you how much I loved being in class with you. You were quiet but you had such a strength about you, and every time you read I felt every single word. You don't wanna know how many times I'd turn to my neighbor when you read and said, "Tanner's so great. Isn't Tanner great?" or something along those lines.
Anyways, thank you so much for dropping in, and I guess what I'm trying to say is that you're pretty great yourself.